poison (en)

Lex walks down the beach, the eyes to the ground. It's like if the sand and the sea were infused with glacial stars, and he feels like he's walking in the sky. But what? His head is too heavy, and he is doomed to endlessly stay on earth and its hard ground.

The loner quickly emerge from his oil spill of thoughts when a voice hails him. The stranger surprised him. Hey. He answers, with a gloomier voice. Why did the stallion come to him? Why did he hail him? Then he realizes he is probably not allowed to be there. Lex sighs. This place is so soothing. But he doesn't have any right here. Fuck. I shouldn't be there, right? You're gonna make me out, I guess, he says, without any aggressiveness or disregard, just damn weary.

Oh. Cool. Lex tries a little smile, relieved. Anyway, he wouldn't have had the strenght and the will to resist. He should, though. He doesn't realize that struggling for what he really wants would give a fucking sense to his life. That's right, I'd like it to work like that. He looks at the stallion beside him, and notices like he is stronger and bigger and taller than himself. Lex had never been really impressive in any case. Yeah, that's pretty ... cool. You live here?

Woman, Red's just betraying all my projects, i start to believe he doesn't wanna see GS without any chief ¬¬ Lex frowns, disconcerted by his enigmatic words, but doesn't add anything, keeping his reflection for himself. He listens to the stallion, and let his lips form a slight smile. It's pretty nice to have sweet remembers like these ones, he said. Then the stranger wanna know about him. He stresses a little : he doesn't use to talk about himself, because nobody asks him () and because he's ashamed of his own fucking life. Well I ... Hm. I always have been a loner, and I don't think it'll change one day. He stares at the stallion one second, and continues. You'd been disappointed with the Ices? He wouldn't be suprised if he was. Lex have never been attracted by groups, and let alone by these huge and frightening kingdoms.

Well, it's easier to share your problems with a perfect stranger you'll never see again, however he won't judge you because he doesn't know you. Anyway, you don't care about a the stranger's opinion. Uh, not so much, he answers with an embarrassed smile. He listens to the other guy. Wow he's so brave to put some humor to his problems. The only humor Lex owns is fucking dark and bitter. Yeah we're both the kind to run away the problems ahah. The truth, this is that Lex is the worst shitty coward in this shitty world, always running away some things that will follow him until he fights them. You seem to have a huge family, don't you? It sounds pretty scary. Really, Lex? Do you really think that being surrounded by people who love you and believe in you sounds scary? It's just your deepest secret dream.

Damnit, he has to be so responsible with all these people ... He must take care of them before his own interest, what Lex is unable to do. But he's sure he's not for that kind of stuff, because he's too unstable. Anyway, he doesn't even have any question to ask himself about that. Uh, no, I had a family when I was a kid, but, hm, not a really good family life I guess. He says that with a little bitter sneer, because it's a fucking euphemism. I escaped them as soon as I could, actually. He's not ready to tell him more, because the truth is too painful and shameful.

Family sucks, to say the least. Lex's eyes drift on the starry sea. He's fucking not ready to say if his life is better now. He would answer Anka. Anka would make his life better. Maybe she will succeed. I don't know, man. I hope. It's not worst, at any rate. You can't make an answer more vague and lost than this one. What about you ?